Last year of Bhagavan thru Annamalai Swamy's eyes

The last year of Bhagavan Ramana as experienced by Sri Annamalai Swamy (please read Living By the Words for account) forms perhaps the most moving account of a devotee of Bhagavan. For those of us for whom Bhagavan's life on earth was the most beautiful event in the history of the "phenomenal" world, the last year of Sri Annamalai Swamy is a most heart-rending account. Although he does not recount it in that way, (his account is very factual), but
one can gather what he would have felt given his life-long devotion to Bhagavan.

In addition, Bhagavan once remarked to another devotee, that those who were physically present had their minds elsewhere, whereas Annamalai Swami who was elsewhere always had his mind on Bhagavan.

Sri Annamalai Swamy was most blessed to be showered with Bhagavan's love and concern
(most deservedly). In the end, he was asked to meditate away from Ashram, and eventually asked not to interact with Bhagavan, so that he may find the real Bhagavan in his Heart.

So in Bhagavan's last year, He never got to speak with Bhagavan at all. When Bhagavan's health began to fail, and He could not walk past Palakottu, Sri Annamalai Swamy would have not had a darshan of His most beloved Bhagavan. During Bhagavan's last "mortal" moment, Sri Annamalai Swamy was in great physical pain, and praying for his own death, and praying that he should die before Bhagavan.
Although, that was not to be, however Bhagavan took with Him Sri Annamalai Swamy's physical pain.

Sri Annamalai Swamy described his last (second-hand) "contact" with Bhagavan's physical body -- the factual account indicates the deep emotions running within.(Spoiler: Annamalai Swamy did not get to have a darshan of Bhagavan even after Bhagavan's mahasamadhi.)